So this afternoon, I decided to be quite productive. I went through all my
documents and damn. They were messy and much unorganized. I have this clear
book where I keep all my important documents with their back-up photocopies. I’m
talking about a thick, heavy clear book. This is where I keep my certificates
and recognition, my college grades, and other government docs needed. Then I
also found my own stash of docs that is for keeping and needs organizing.
Because I only have this one clear book, I have to decide which is more
important and remove what is not entirely useful to me.
Then it hit me. I REALLY AM GETTING OLD. I removed all my college training
certificates along with awards, recognition and dedicated one page of my
clear book for them. Even the college grades I have, my curriculum guide, my
docs for internship and all other stuff I have from college. I replaced them
with my employment contracts, hiring, and regularization to salary increase. I
also had to put in my newly acquired policies. This is me literally turning my
book page to the next chapter.
All those days when my life’s worry was just exams and research papers are now
gone. Life’s throwing me with responsibilities and society’s expectation.
Whenever I think of things I wanted to do, I had to get back to reality and
compromise. I am afraid of falling into the utter mediocrity of life. It is
frightening, to have your spark completely shut off. All your dreams and views,
all your potential gone to waste.
BUT NO. I refuse to live where I can’t realize my full possibilities. I won’t
get stucked and fucked. This is also my responsibility to myself. And not just
a promise, it is a commitment to work on my goal and not let life pass me by.
Okay Jasmin. you made your point. Go to sleep and make this happen. Bye. J
